Scrunched up on the sofa hugging a cushion and the unwashed fluffy jumper I've been wearing for seven days. I marinade. Despite lastnight's bath - filled with magnesium salts we got for Dad -, I'm sure I smell earthy, natural, and probably rank: my hair, due a wash last Wednesday, is matted and limp and... Continue Reading →
It has been a tricky week, mentally. And I lost my motivation to write my daily morning to-do lists, I drank alcohol - my trusty old crutch -, one day I hardly spoke because speech felt so inane. The only constant has been reading. Salvation from the prison of the mind. I spent three days... Continue Reading →
Spent the afternoon in the garden. I put my blue blanket down in the same spot I did the other day when there were loads of bees. Me thinking I was Snow White, in tune with nature, attracting all the pollinators to hang out. Today, sprawled on the blanket, trying to take photos of my... Continue Reading →
Muesli for breakfast. It made me miss Nan who used to eat it with tea poured over instead of milk. How many people in the world have eaten something today for it to remind them of someone that's gone? Maybe on purpose to feel closer to them? Like wearing a pair of grey trackies of... Continue Reading →
Yesterday, the message changed on the news. Now? Everyone's at risk, all ages: stay at home. They could make the message resonate more: "stay home and bake", "stay home, sew, use the garden rake", "stay home, learn, change your fate", "stay home, Houseparty mates", "stay home, Skype date", "stay home, sleep late", "stay home in... Continue Reading →
Isolation has been extended another three weeks. Thankfully. The daily death toll continues to rise despite how far away it feels in sunny, rural Somerset where I drink strong tea and keep my sun-burned nose buried in a book. I tuned into the News again tonight, after Israel went for his walk - he gets pissed... Continue Reading →
I'd felt lethargic. Lazy. Like I never wanted to do anything ever again if it required moving. The brown sofa, my cradle. When the weather changed and heat spread over the fresh shit that was the cold day, I suddenly felt alive. IMAGINE: isolation without warmth. 😫😫😫 The sun, our ultimate energy giver raised me... Continue Reading →
Outside was cold. I kept standing on the front doorstep yearning to be sat on the garden chair under the warm sun with a cup of tea, but the wind stayed frisky. A while back we noticed something else was growing in the lavendar pot. We refrained from pulling it out just in case it... Continue Reading →
I laid on the blue blanket that had been to festivals and on many walks and had shimmered with glitter and been drenched in beer, in the garden under the sun and listened to the hum upon hum upon hum of black and white Ashy Mining bees and really loud birds, especially the robin sat... Continue Reading →
